When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
Siren's Song
Wednesday, July 30, 2003
Wednesday, July 30, 2003, 1015h
I never felt so lonely.
Never felt so out of place.
I never wanted something more than this.
Sometimes I wonder if it�s just THE time of the month that�s making me edgy. Talk about Murphy�s Law, just about everything that can go wrong has gone wrong. My patience feels as though it�s as worn out as a well-sucked lollipop. I must be experiencing the worst pimple outbreak in my life. As I�m typing I can feel another potential pus-oozing bump emerging on my forehead. What in the world is happening to me?
Break me shake me hate me take me over
When the madness stops then you will be alone
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. I feel like screaming. I should scream. Screaming should alleviate my maniac depression syndromes, right? My CD-writer�s forsaken me; my scanner�s on strike. Nothing works. Absolutely nothing works. I know only losers ask �Why?� and sit there wondering what has hit them. Winners would take on each blow with a to-hell-with-it mentality and face it with hit-by-a-truck-and-dare-it-to-hit-again attitude. What good would frustration and helplessness do to broken equipment? Nothing, right? No miracles, no hocus pocus, no magic. Just the good old laws of nature. And the laws of nature say broken hardware stays broken, buy a new set or forever hold your peace!
They say hanging on will justify the wait.
But patience and elated wisdom don�t share a common phrase.
Kill me. I wanted to get something done with my CD-writer. So I brought it to the cash converter, hoping to get at least $100 for what I paid $450 for originally. After one hour of torturous waiting that guy at the counter just went �Oh I�m so sorry!! I didn�t see you with a hardware in the queue! We don�t accept hardware!� Grr. Double grr. With sweet smile and a �It�s OK..it�s really OK!� I turned around and walked outta the shop, just one step away from homicide. Ah well. Maybe it�s just meant to be. Who knows? I might just get it repaired with $50? Look on the bright side, silly girl!
Yea yea. Prolly the only thing that cheered me up today would be that I subscribed to broadband! Yay! 256K unlimited ADSL surfing! No more hefty phone bills! You see, Singtel charges phone usage by the minute, unlike Telstra and Optus which charges a flat rate of 20 cents for 5 h. Of course, since today�s the day Murphy�s Law reigns, I prolly won�t get to use the broadband access so much. I�ll be shifting to campus next week! Doink! Hm.. well.. Anyhow, broadband�s so much a better deal than dialup. My bro can use it. He needs it. The bright side! The bright side!!
Itchy itchy scratchy scratchy up and down my backy wacky
Fle fly mosquito
Aaaah. I can�t find my insect repellant. I sure hope the guys bring some along to the fishing trip tomorrow. Please do.. please.. p-l-e-a-s-e.
